this morning when i rose

This morning when I rose,

I felt like a new man.

A weight had been lifted from my shoulders,

and I was ready to take on the day.

I had this sensation of hope and energy

that I hadn’t felt in a long time.

That’s when it happened: the panic attack.

It came out of nowhere, taking my breath away for good measure.

It was intense enough that I had to stop what I was doing and lean against a wall until it passed. It took me weeks to work up the courage again; but at least this time, there were no tears waiting for me on the other side like before.” And then you can start over with “This morning when I rose…” Again! Keep going back sentence by sentence without numbers or bullet points until you’ve got an entire paragraph written about “The weight being lifted from your shoulders,” et cetera.

This morning when I rose, I was ready to take on the day.

I had this sensation of hope and energy that I hadn’t felt in a long time. That’s when it happened: the panic attack. It came out of nowhere taking my breath away for good measure; but at least this time there were no tears waiting for me on the other side like before.” And then you can start over with “This morning when I rose…” Again! Keep going back sentence by sentence without numbers or bullet points until you’ve got an entire paragraph written about “The weight being lifted from your shoulders,” et cetera.

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Quickly, as if they knew what might come next, the tears began to fall.

I laid there on the living room carpet, feeling empty and whole at the same time as if a void had opened up inside me and my heart filled it.

It was then that I realized how heavy this weight of depression had been for so long. The constant ache in my chest, waking up every day with a pit in my stomach – numbness like cotton filling every space not taken by panic attacks.”

This morning when I rose

to take on the day, “things” felt different. Without any warning whatsoever..the weight being lifted from your shoulders; you’re having trouble catching your breath but somehow breathing feels easier than ever before? All of sudden people are smiling at you and it’s like they’re seeing for the first time.

The weight of depression has been lifted off my shoulders, I’m breathing easier than ever before – people are smiling. Somewhere deep inside me I feel lighter somehow.”

I don’t know where this newfound feeling comes from but today when I rose to take on the day there was a certain light in everything that felt different. More importantly, though? There is hope because with every new day brings possibility” “Somewhere deep inside me I feel lighter..there is hope”.

This morning when i rose __new what might come next__the tears began to fall.__i laid there on the living room carpet_feeling empty and whole at the same time

with just a touch of anger. It was just after sunrise__and the light in my eyes was so bright that it made me cry

I don’t know where this newfound feeling comes from_but today when I rose to take on the day there was a certain light in everything that felt different. More importantly, though? There is hope because with every new day brings possibility” “Somewhere deep inside me I feel lighter..there is hope”.

When i rise __new what might come next__the tears began to fall.__i laid there on the living room carpet_feeling empty and whole at the same time

With just a touch of anger__it was just after sunrise_& __when i first saw you smiling back at me.” “

When i rise __new what might come next__the tears began to fall._i laid there on the living room carpet-feeling empty and whole at the same time.” “The anger had no place here so it left my body as if we were two separate beings.”

What’s wrong?” she asked while wiping away her own tears. A pain unlike anything else welled up inside me as I took in her beautiful face.

“I’m so mad,” I said, but before she could respond with questions__i felt it slip away.” “An invisible hand reached inside my chest and released all the anger that had been weighing me down for days like a suffocating cloak”._suddenly_every last bit of it was gone. ”

She smiled at me reassuringly then pulled me into an embrace. “We’ll get through this together”. It was just what i needed to hear-the words pushed every other thought out of my head until there was nothing left except peace & relief_.& those tears were gone now too..mostly because they were replaced by laughter when we realized how ridiculous our fight had been.

The story of my life is the story of a redemption-struggling to rise from the ashes and climb back up onto the mountain top__i have fallen many times but I keep rising for one simple reason: faith. _I know God will carry me when i can’t walk any more, so that gives me peace now because nothing in this world has power over me except Him.”

“All you need do,”Jesus told them, “is ask.”(Mark 11:24) And He does not disappoint! Every day as I approach His throne with hard questions about myself & others, praying out loud often becomes an impromptu worship session._& every time it feels like coming home..like entering a proverbial “village” where i’m surrounded by people who know, love and understand me.

The simple grace of mercy is a gift given to all-a healing balm for our deepest wounds._ It’s not easy__it hurts at times__but it transforms us into what we’re always meant to be: human beings created in the image of God with hope eternal! And that’s why I keep rising–because when He rises again on this earth, so will I..in newness of life. Amen!!

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A bullet point list would include content like: **I woke up this morning and felt the need to pray with others__ **I feel like it’s a place where I belong

*It’s not easy but for that reason, it heals us too.

*When God rises again on earth, so will we in new life! Amen!!

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* Description ~~ this morning when i rose; other people praying out loud often becomes an impromptu worship session._& every time it feels like coming home..like entering a proverbial “village” where i’m surrounded by people who know, love and understand me.

* The simple grace of mercy is a gift we bestow upon each other in this place. A bullet point list might include content about: * When I Rise ~~ Poems of Redemption Written by Maria Caballero-Najera * Description ~~ the simple grace of mercy is a gift we bestow upon each other in this place._& when i’m there, it’s like coming home to an atmosphere where i know, love and understand myself..but also that God does too. The long form version of blog post may continue with more sentences than those listed above for now. This document will eventually be updated as progress continues on your piece. If you have any questions or comments please email me at hello@tiffanyhartsellwriter.com Tiff